You go girl. This is fabulous. Don't you dare judge yourself like that. Can you imagine what a perfect mother would be? It would be ridiculous. It's an oxymoron actually 😉 Us mother are meant to be an introduction to the world. We're teachers, mentors and a lot of messy mess ups. I work with adults on the spectrum. From me to you - the most important thing you can do is be really really proud of your every moment. I know the truth--that you deal with a lot of judgment from a lot of people who think they know better!!! Please keep this close to your heart--YOU KNOW BETTER. This child is your heart! Let intuition guide you.