Tonight Abba gave me a letter and in the letter He said… “You’ve been through the fire. You’ve seen what I want you to see. The fire exposed all that I wanted you to see. When you look into the fire you see Me. I become clear. AM clear to you. This process is not for the faint of heart.” Soon after I saw a vision of me at the end of a fiery tunnel-like path. The face of Jesus was at the end of the path. I was standing there looking at Jesus. I only saw His face. He had fiery eyes and was so pure. His head was bigger than my whole being in this vision. I was just standing there and suddenly I saw a green fire start to come from below me and try to engulf me. It was trying to burn me and hurt me. It felt threatening and so oppressive. There was no heat but it was somehow fiery. The pure fire of Jesus that I had just come from wasn’t aimed at me. It was aimed at the sin in my life and my blindspots. It was targeting the things that were hurting me and burning those off. It was healing me and refreshing me even when it was hot. But never harming me. The green fire was VERY different. It was targeting me physically. Coming for my physical body. I firmly believe this vision isn’t just for me but for the body of Christ. Many born again believers are out of the fiery trial sent from the God of the Bible but they are feeling more burned then ever. It’s been confusing for them and caused them some hopelessness. They feel like this will be their forever and there will never truly be a light at the end of the tunnel. This is a lie. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and His name is Jesus. He is there with you. The green fire will not harm you. It’s intended for harm but it will only strengthen you as you keep your gaze focused on the I AM. Take heart born again believer. Take heart. If this is for you too…the refining is done for now. For this season of your life it’s DONE. You’ll know what I mean because Abba will confirm this to you. You’ll still have trials and maybe even persecution.

Hey guys I am back I have grown a lot and learned lots with Abba! ✨

The last couple months have been so heavy for me. Since I deleted Instagram and Tik Tok it’s been so hard. The beginning of the year I had to distance from some closer connections and this has meant that I am VERY alone. Without social media at the same capacity, it truly means I am very alone. I used to talk with quite a few people on a daily. New people and people that followed me for awhile. It was so hard to give up Instagram. I really like the app and was proud of the vibe of the account I had. Then Abba asked me to give it up. He means more to me than any app so it was a done deal. But it’s been so hard. Abba has shown me LOTS to do with my parents and family that have been very painful to work through ON MY OWN living in the same house I was negatively affected in. Around my parents as my ONLY human interaction in person for MONTHS now…it’s been one of the hardest periods of my life and I have been through some tougher things in my life. The last month I have been spending more time with my parents because I’ve needed people so badly and Abba has been merciful and provided for me through them. He has wanted me to hang around them for a little bit. It has been really triggering me. I have been wondering why I’ve felt so off the last month…then tonight Abba reminded me of the whole concept of PTSD. I don’t like mental health labels or going to doctors to get those labels on your medical record. I think that’s not the wisest choice in this day. But I KNOW I have PTSD. I had someone prophesy over me a few years ago that PTSD would be something I become healed from and then I’ll able to help people through that in a very powerful way due to how Abba has helped me walk through this journey pretty much solely with HIM. But the last month almost every day I have a PTSD flare up. Like I haven’t felt like myself. I feel like I can’t catch a break because I am hanging around my parents more in my childhood home that is so traumatizing for me. I need to leave this house so badly but I can’t go until Abba tells me to go.

(Feel free to comment your prayer requests for today down in the comment section) I have been anxious all day today. My heart has been racing due to how stressed I feel in this current season I am in. I know my heart is healthy but it’s so heavy. I feel very overwhelmed and yet God tells me to just wait on Him. I know He is sustaining me but this is just awful 😔 There’s NO sign of reprieve and now Abba asked me today if He has permission to reveal something to me and I was like Yes but NOW WHAT!?? My brain feels like it wants to explode and my heart just wants to cry.

It’s been SUPER heavy lately. Summer begins tomorrow and I DREAD the summer time. I am not a hot weather woman. I love a cold/cloudy. I want to make this as good of a summer as I can. Since I have been going through a lot and could use a BOOST of encouragement...I am going to attempt reading the Bible in a month starting tomorrow. If you want to join me…feel free to. If not that’s all good. Scripture is so life giving and refreshing. I could really use some DEEP refreshment. Maybe you guys need that too. Scripture is stunning. I can’t wait to be in it loads this next month! Less scrolling and more reading 😎