This was written by me: a human...to you beautiful humans. I used to think self-trust was built through discipline and bold moves. I was an adventurer in my 20s, traveling solo around the western US, moving hundreds of miles at a time to new adventures, and sometimes international excursions. Back then, self-trust looked like boldness and momentum. And sometimes sheer nieve overconfidence. Somewhere along the way, I lost that bold and blind trust, even though I am still almost as strong and much, much wiser. Now I am building a new version of self-trust. One that is based on building a version of myself that I can count on for the long haul (not just reckless abandon and grand adventures flying by the seat of my pants). A version that follows through and finishes what she starts. A version that is creating a life that is built on solid foundations, not caffeine and adrenaline. Mostly because I was tired of the burnout, the uncertain future, and the shame of broken promises to others and myself. With annual food plants, we tend tiny plants through a harvest. It is a short-term tending. But with perennial plants in Permaculture, we are planning for systems that work together for greater success and ease. Planning for years or even decades into the future. Such as, how big is this Walnut tree going to get, and how far should I plant it from that barn? Or what will happen to this plant community during the worst droughts we have seen, the coldest weather, or the deepest snow? We look over a longer timeline. But it isn't for more work, it is to save us a lot of grief later, so we can relax and enjoy. My new self-trust is based on the foundation that I will always stand up for myself, and I will do things to make life better and more peaceful for my future self. Even if that means a little sweat now. This included a massive shift in how I scheduled my week, and I grew a spine that said "no" A LOT. I am now tending my own life and energy like a long term permaculture project. Instead of throwing a bunch of stuff together and "seeing what will happen", I am carefully curating the things that light me up, and weeding out the time and energy drains. I am nourishing the "soil" of my mental and physical nutrition, so I am in an environment that boosts me.