Was walking down the street and started to assume what if everything I want I already have? I started to feel the whole, feeling complete and non needy energy. An attractive girl was walking my direction and we locked eyes for longer than a second and she broke eye contact first. I noticed I felt quite grounded and would say this is a win as I would never hold eye contact like that normally.

Hey guys, I'm Alakh from London and living in Budapest the past 2 years. I moved thinking it would allow me to socialize more and break out of the belief system where socializing/dating is bad as my parents had an arranged marriage from a different part of the world and was shamed for having sexual desire. However the trauma from not fitting in school/bullying caused a constant anxiety/fear which led me to isolation and never having had a relationship or being on a date. My goal is to overcome that subconscious programming that makes me feel shame/anxiety when trying to socialize with women so that I can be whole/autonomous.