So from this mornings workshop one of the takeaways was related to retention rates and view time. I posted a reel in trials that’s been up for a few hours and at the 3 second mark it’s at 80%. It doesn’t drop below 60% until the 8 second mark. The average watch time is 14 seconds, total length is 26 seconds. The view count is only 685. Does that signal post a copy to the main feed? Scale the video back to 14 seconds in length? Do I try other variations in reels to shoot for a higher view count?

I learned everything except how to be rich Curiosity Hook A. Everyone thinks that you need money to make money. Here’s what actually worked (showing the transaction on my phone, with money I didn’t have, for an IG program to gain influence and followers) - I turns out that desperation has an ROI… if you aim it B. I thought filing for bankruptcy was the only option I had until I figured out that pain is Fort Knox. - How I used my emotions to feel how much more tolerable the discomfort of making content is than the pain of failing my kids. C. How I survived debt that crushed me without filing for bankruptcy - There are so many paths to financial relief and the one you choose doesn’t need permission or approval Knife-Edge Hook A. I almost gave up again until I spent my last dollar - I almost filed for bankruptcy again, but I said fuck that and spent my last of it on an IG course. B. I almost lost myself over money… instead, I took control and started rebuilding. - Debt through me over the edge. With everything else my divorce did to me it was the cherry on top. Instead of bailing on life I chose discomfort in the pursuit of the ultimate relief. C. I almost let my followers decide how successful I’d be but instead I muted them, bought an IG program, got rich and then un-muted them - Fear of what people who I know would think about how fucked up my life is was keeping me down. It was keeping the real Adam from taking control. I muted them and now its no hold barred. Refusal Hook A. I refused Bankruptcy. I chose an IG course - Spending my last dimes gambling on me means I can never say I didn’t try. BK is always there, my shot on IG may not be. B. I said no to a budget and yes to making enough money to say no whenever the fuck I want - Make a budget, make a plan, spend wise… fuck that, I want to make memories and make my kids dreams come true. C. Never again “PayPal pay in 4”, From now on..."what’s the cash discount?" PAID IN FULL!

I sent this video out for trial last night and it fell flat on its face. I know this is only day 3 for me but any pointers on tweaks I should try would be really appreciated 🙏

5 STRUGGLES 1. I love my ex-wife. Everyday I miss her, and every day I hate myself for it. We were married for 12 years and in August of 2023 shit hit the fan. For 9 months, August to May, she cheated on me, lied to me, gaslit me, and manipulated me. I bear hugged the fuck out of my marriage only to realize I wasn’t fighting for anything, I was on my knees begging. She left the home in June. I was lost, alone, scared, and left to raise both our kids (Landon 13 and Riley 8) alone. She chose her career in nursing and sees our kids a few days a month (she moved ¼ mile up the road). I start fights with her because the negative attention feels better then the silence. I spend too much time thinking about her, still fantasizing about her, and wish everyday she’ll come back. I’m so disappointed in what I am, and ashamed that the secret I keep from my kids is that I’m still in love with a woman who wouldn’t piss on me if I was on fire. 2. Nothing is ever enough. My whole life has been an endless pursuit of quick fixes. Drugs, money, women, and any vice that would numb or distract me from the torture of silence. I don’t love me and live in a purgatory of negative feedback loops. Life now has landed on Kratom and dopamine hits from the pathetic 5 or 6 likes I’ll get on a post or a response to any one of the 5 or 6 girls that I randomly find on IG to talk to, hoping I found a replacement. 3. I’ve been divorced for a year. Last year my ex-wife decided she didn’t like the terms of our separation agreement and took legal action. That legal action ruined me. I have never had so much debt in my life. So with bankruptcy imminent, I took the last bit of wiggle room I had on credit and used it to become a part of this community and to roll the dice one last time… I bet on me. Right now, I predict I’ll give up and fail (how but that for self deprecation? haha) 4. I’m bipolar and I suffer from depression and ADD as well. I take Lamictal, Wellbutrin, and Adderall and make sure every day starts with a few hundred milligrams of caffeine. Everyday of my life for the last two years has been spent in fight or flight mode. If I were a car… the gauges are redlined, the Nos Tank is sputtering, all the bolts are loose, and the wheels are one swerve away from falling off. I haven’t been in the gym consistently in months due to back pain and a back surgery in November… but even when I’m in the gym I don’t take care of myself the way I know I should. I do vanity exercises and despite that being my main focus I STILL don’t have a 6 pack.

IG: Adam Flash, 1200 Followers. The types of videos I post are really all over the place. It's the gym, my daughter, random assertions and quirks, and reflective. In terms of what I'm looking to get out of this community, honestly... I'm not looking to get much out. I'm looking to get in and be a part of likeminded people who can help lift me up.