Day 1 · AI For R*tards

Day 1

5 STRUGGLES

1. I love my ex-wife. Everyday I miss her, and every day I hate myself for it. We were married for 12 years and in August of 2023 shit hit the fan. For 9 months, August to May, she cheated on me, lied to me, gaslit me, and manipulated me. I bear hugged the fuck out of my marriage only to realize I wasn’t fighting for anything, I was on my knees begging. She left the home in June. I was lost, alone, scared, and left to raise both our kids (Landon 13 and Riley 8) alone. She chose her career in nursing and sees our kids a few days a month (she moved ¼ mile up the road). I start fights with her because the negative attention feels better then the silence. I spend too much time thinking about her, still fantasizing about her, and wish everyday she’ll come back. I’m so disappointed in what I am, and ashamed that the secret I keep from my kids is that I’m still in love with a woman who wouldn’t piss on me if I was on fire.

2. Nothing is ever enough. My whole life has been an endless pursuit of quick fixes. Drugs, money, women, and any vice that would numb or distract me from the torture of silence. I don’t love me and live in a purgatory of negative feedback loops. Life now has landed on Kratom and dopamine hits from the pathetic 5 or 6 likes I’ll get on a post or a response to any one of the 5 or 6 girls that I randomly find on IG to talk to, hoping I found a replacement.

3. I’ve been divorced for a year. Last year my ex-wife decided she didn’t like the terms of our separation agreement and took legal action. That legal action ruined me. I have never had so much debt in my life. So with bankruptcy imminent, I took the last bit of wiggle room I had on credit and used it to become a part of this community and to roll the dice one last time… I bet on me. Right now, I predict I’ll give up and fail (how but that for self deprecation? haha)

4. I’m bipolar and I suffer from depression and ADD as well. I take Lamictal, Wellbutrin, and Adderall and make sure every day starts with a few hundred milligrams of caffeine. Everyday of my life for the last two years has been spent in fight or flight mode. If I were a car… the gauges are redlined, the Nos Tank is sputtering, all the bolts are loose, and the wheels are one swerve away from falling off. I haven’t been in the gym consistently in months due to back pain and a back surgery in November… but even when I’m in the gym I don’t take care of myself the way I know I should. I do vanity exercises and despite that being my main focus I STILL don’t have a 6 pack.

5. The last two years worth of stress have cost me my hair. I have lost so much hair in the crown region and it has become my biggest source of insecurity. It has gotten to the point where it will, at times, alter the way I walk or the direction I walk… specifically when there’s an attractive woman around me or coming near me. I default most days to wearing beanies or hats.

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5 CORRESPONDING WINS

1. Win #1…writing win #1! My ex wife gave me just enough pain and trauma to make righteousness public enemy number one. Her hell has now become my paradise. She won! She succeeded in killing me. But she wasn’t counting on me meeting Daniel and the rest of all of you that I haven’t met yet. Everyone here is formally invited, front row seats to my birth. Adam – JACKED, RICH, TATTED, FULL HEAD OF HAIR, AND THE BADDEST MOST LOYAL BRUNETTE THERE EVER WAS.

2. I feel really fulfilled and alive when I help people. The things I hate about myself and all the negative feedback loops sent me on a pursuit of knowledge. I have done so much reading on psychology and emotions. To the extent that I discovered that my pain and torment can be buoys for someone who is drowning. Feeling seen is so important and when I talk to people I know that while everyone’s experience is subjective, they feel seen and validated even though I know nothing of their path.

3. Spending has always been an issue for me. I have always made good money but I have always been broke. While the divorce decimated me, I’d be lying If I said I was on a path of fiscal freedom beforehand. I actually filed for bankruptcy 10 years ago. The amount of financial knowledge and loop holes I know how to navigate is staggering. It feels like my entire adult life has been spent on finding ways to game the system (while it gamed me haha) and what I’ve walked away with is a doctorate on financial tools for people who make under 200k/year. People always want to know why I know so much, I’ve never told that it’s actually quite easy to be rich with knowledge when your not spending the time on doing things that’ll actually make you rich.

4. Everyone around me is loved and taken care of. The reason I am the way I am is because there’s nothing left in my cup to give to myself. Every ounce of love, and care, and kindness, and warmth I have goes to everyone but me. I always want everyone around me to be happy and to smile. Its why I love to cook and bake, its why I’ll go out my way and endure an imposition so you don’t have to. My kids have the best dad on the face of this planet because I NEVER want them to feel what I feel.

5. I used to get so fixated on my cock size. And then my wife cheated on me and left me, that really sealed the coffin. But then the hair started to go and I’ve fucked a few chicks in the last year. So I realized porn is not real life, my cock works fine (as evidenced by the existence of my two children), and I can make other women cum too. I don’t care or worry about my dick anymore.

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CIRCLED WIN: My wife destroyed me, I REBUILT ME

3 Curiosity Loop Hooks

Most people survive trauma. I chose death, You’re watching the rebirth.

She made me feel worthless. She was right…her world couldn’t afford I was becoming.

She erased the man I was. I built the man I was meant to be.

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Concept Reel

Emotion Attempting to Evoke: Justice

(Hook)

“She made me feel worthless”

(Visual Concept)

Photo of me fat as fuck, depressed. Or static video of me sitting on the bed of my truck in sweats and a hoodie. Hood up and head held low, visibly going through it.

(Text Overlay)

“She was right…her world couldn’t afford what I was becoming”

(Visual Concept)

Then there is a hard cut to me getting after it at the gym. Shirt off

(Text Overlay)

“Worth doesn’t negotiate; it relocates”

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