How i am back normal to myself since last week when I end m relationship but I still care for him that I want to be friend with him but what he told me last felt like he wanted me to suicide myself by telling me I should give my life to god because I don't go out of the house or do other activity why will he want that for me because I didn't want is manipulate or his control so last night he couldn't speak because he block me so this morning he decide to unblock me and tell me that I take everything the opposite of what he saying but it is not true and I decide to block him . Because after one week not talking to him my body change back to myself because there was to much red flag. I see a big different in me from 3 years ago when the level of anxiety was high that now I still have it but i can control it. My life is so wonderful and calm now because I know if I will continue talking to him that my body will always be frustrated because he brought me down every time. I am better be alone than being in a toxic place.

My win is that my body didn't freak or panic inside when i want to clean at a new place thay was a lunchroom because of the fire and DNR and the co-workers are using it and it was not clean so the director ask my manager if i could clean it and what is it funny how my body is changing for a better me. I even talk to co-workers that was new to me because it was my first time going there.

I am proud of myself for sending a message to my ex to tell him that this relationship is done because it is a big release off my shoulder because this relationship was toxic and he was manipulative and not supportive with my mental health that didn't help either. Now I can focus again on my personal growth and see again my progress.

I am struggling with a lot lately and I feel like i am off track and can't back be on. Like right now i am hurting inside because my ex boyfriend will want to hang out and my body feel stress after seeing him like last weekend when we hang out together. I just feel that everything is going down in my life. My mental heath is not really good because I feel like i am back on egg shell and can't do much. My anxiety level is back high and can't seem to slow it down.

Hi guys - sorry, I know I keep doing this, but any chance we can move our session tonight to 4 hours later than billed? I've got family round at our usual time