I wanted to finally heal. I had put the things in place I needed to in order to be successful, but I needed the connection with other people to access the part of my humanness that I had ignored for years that I needed to access to be actually realize my potential. That community where I was safe to say "this is what I am experiencing, and I need some help to understand what my next steps are." For someone afraid to ask for help, this was crazy. I can't thank you enough for the people you helped me connect with (I'm looking at you, @Candace Geurtsen and @Eid Mohammad Sultan zoi )that have been more fun, funny, and supportive than I can ever tell you.