My journey from cocaine addiction to Self mastery
Hey guys, here is my journey and the lessons I learned As @Mark X requested I share it her it is It all started about 20 years ago when I was 15, at the time I was feeling a little bit depressed and wanted to build freedom in my life, my parents were very strict and did listen to my complains seriously I was being bullied at school since the age of 8 and couldn't take it anymore, I was raised as Catholic and in the bible Jesus said if you get slapped on the right cheek give them your left which might have worked for him but didn't work for me, more Than that the only option my parents allowed me to use was to report the Bulling to the teachers... which only made it worse I remember the day It all changed, it was science class and someone made fun of me, and everyone laughed... even the teacher deep inside of me I felt rejected and, I felt betrayed by my parents, I had done everything to be the good kid they wanted me to be and I was forced to go to a school where I was just suffering So I made the decision to become the most rebellious and most popular kid of my school I started organising parties, first in bars (alcohol consumption for beers and low % beverage is allowed from 16) then at my parent's house when they were away, one day I met a dude at apery I had done in my parent's house we had ecstasy this blew my mind (duh) and I decided I was going to sell it, it would make me popular, feel good, and get money which happened, for the next ten years I was selling and making money I was known in various circles and clubs, owners would often prefer me as I was suppling their clients with good stuff without causing trouble this activity gre pretty well and I had a large range of products, basically all I'd want to consume on a daily basis at the peak I had 8 people working for me, and this is where things got tricky, one day my associate and best friend decided to set me up, this started an spiral of paranoia and overconsumptions, guns got involves and I wasn't ready for it