Wanting to blame others was strong with this reflection. I could feel it. There has been definite progress and growth in my life, and I definitely wouldn’t have been able to do it alone, but at the same time I feel extremely stuck and like I’m just waiting for my kids to grow up to finally do the things I want to do or go to the places I want to go. Many days I’m just so mentally exhausted I just live on autopilot, doing the things I know that need to be done around the house and just living my life on repeat with the occasional fun day thrown in. Not that being at home can’t be fun, but it’s just every day same shit different day it feels like… and I’ve just kind of accepted it, figured when the kids grow up then I can focus on myself because right now I give so much to everyone else and manage everyone else else’s emotions that I just suppress mine usually until I either blow up or have a meltdown. This past year I’ve really tried to find things for my own that make me happy, but again that’s where the lack of discipline comes in is sometimes the thought of something just seems so exhausting that I will just end up doing nothing.

Reflection Where am I giving my power away? I'm doing this in the things that generally bring me joy or results, where i expect those around me to be as passionate and responsible as I do What excuses do I repeat ? I didn't go or practice because someone else isn't participating or putting in as much work as me ( not my proudest moments ) What would change if I took full ownership of my circumstances? REAL GROWTH Action Choose one area where you take your power back. I have too many im on the path of change (ACCOUNTABILTY) Excersise and results is my responsibility Practicing strategies and learning any hobby is my responsibility. Discipline is my responsibility My foundation is my responsibility

I am working on physical alignment the most right now. I have been guilty of ignoring a lot of things in life, like health and wellness, in pursuit of the dream. I am learning that balance is required to make it happen. The physical alignment is what I will conquer first 🙏

I'm spiritually out of alignment! I tend to let my emotions get the best of me when it comes to people I care about!

Here is my day 1 actions! Life mirrors our internal beliefs: Reflection Where in my life am I blaming others? I'm finding myself in a cycle where I feel my growth and progress is at the expense of those around me, example; as I progress and gain moment, skills and grow my talents if those around me aren't also doing or attempting the same in either detaching from them in order to keep momentum or feeling guilty as I am choosing a forked path ( if i continue the time i spend with those closest to me are replaced to do this ), those talents and opportunities stop as I internally blame those that choose not to follow through. An invisible wall What patterns keep repeating? I pick up new skills , start to invest in those and then reach a point where I feel disconnection to those around closest to me. What might life be trying to teach me? That my skills talents and gifts are infinite. Action 3 traits i have been avoiding. People do what they do and I have no control over that. I need to push through that obstacle / wall and see it far the path goes I am 100% guided and supported. I need to trust the path, divine timing.