My little niece wants nothing more than to play with me every time I come over.
Each time I come by, she goes in her room, gathers a few toys and brings them to me to play. Often these games are rather involved, and it would require my full attention. So, while I would love to play games with her, I have to tell her that I can’t, because I want to spend time with her and the whole family. All she hears, however is, “no.” She tries again, gathers another toy, and brings it back. One toy after another receives the same response, so my niece thinks that the problem isn’t her toys, but her. I want her company with the rest of the family. I want to spend time with them all together. But, because she doesn’t understand, and she feels rejected.
We do this with God. Whenever we ask God in prayer to bless our projects or plans before we ask Him what He wants us to do, we can feel the same rejection; no, after no, after no. Each one hurting more than the last.
Instead, ask God to direct your action. Ask God what He wants for your life. Ask God lead you to His plan for you and how He wants to share the kingdom with you!
Docility is another term for this disposition. We are docile when we ask God to lead and we are willing to follow.
Pray then, for docility and ask the Lord to bring you where He wants to lead!