Dani,
I am Spiritual Alignment Coach that is a Nervous system regulation coach for women who have trauma and cptsd from betrayal and other serious souls wounds. We will learn how to manifest from a place of peace and alignment. With 30 plus years of experience I know that the medicine to unlock for peace and clarity is inside of each one of us. It's behind a locked door we forgot we ever even knew we had.
After so many years of trying to fix myself with outward things I found that though those outside things have their place the journey is within. I've been down that road and I have uncovered many spiritual tools in alignment..
You are not broken. You are not hopeless. You are not that different. Your place of creativity without judgement just lies ahead. I'm with you every step of the way.