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Friendship in addiction.
Friendship in addiction is as difficult as trying to play Jenga on the high seas. I see so many people getting sober and finding out that sobriety is, sometimes, maybe most times, a lonely, desolate road where the only company you have are the terrible memories from a life no one would’ve chosen. The truth is, it’s easy to say that “we see who our friends are” but I think a lot of the blame for our loneliness lands a bit closer to home than a finger pointing at others. In addiction, I never knew what friendship meant. I mean, I had the people I got high with but most of those would rip me off or stab me in the back faster than they could spell trust or loyalty so, I wouldn’t call them a friend. I had my dealers and my script pushers, who always acted like friends & talked like they were looking out for me but the only interest they ever had was what I could add to their bankroll so, again, wouldn’t call them a friend. The addict stumbles through life burning bridges faster than a troll doused in gasoline & calling the people who help us fall, our friends then wonder why friendship seems so difficult in sobriety! As an addict, we’re so ashamed of our actions and letting everyone down that we seek out isolation and solitude until they are the only thing that we know!! We push everyone away until that loneliness is where we call home. So, in sobriety it’s easy to find comfort alone or feel at home with the chaos of our own thoughts! Idk maybe after our life of addiction and every single person that we did call a friend screwing us over or ratting us out, it’s easier to feel safer in sobriety, alone. We wear emotions on our sleeves that we used to bury under 6 day benders or gallons of liquor, so it’s hard to step out of the comfort of our own bubble, of our solitude, of our safety & say hi to that stranger from the past or that person we wish we could be friends with again!! Friendship in sobriety can be, at times, as scary as sobriety was when we were addicted but as with everything in sobriety, there is always a reward for stepping out of our comfort zone! The people you called a friend yesterday will rarely be the people you see tomorrow so don’t be afraid to say hello to that neighbor, that guy down the street or the dude you see everyday at the gas station! I know it feels foreign for something as simple as a hello but friendship is important in life and growth never comes easy!! Growth never starts from a comfort zone!! Thanks for reading! 💯❤️
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Friendship in addiction.
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