11d • Journals: Wins / Losses
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Haven't checked in a while. I had another pretty big flair up of my condition that took me out of the game for a few days. I thought it's important to share here, because me treating it and getting better is integral to my success as a trader. I have quite a severe version of bipolar type 2, in that I have been cycling into episodes 1-3 times per week. It's been extremely debilitating and has taken a massive toll on my life. I'm extremely lucky for my wife, sticking with me and I am even more blessed to have become a father through all this. I didn't want to share it because I wanted the focus to be on my trading rather than my disorder and admitting bipolar in this business could really damage any reputation I would try to build with a prop firm or investors in the future. But this is my reality, and I don't want to hide from it anymore. I'd rather put in the work and have a great track record that speaks for itself.
I've been off medication for a while. I've tried a bunch of stuff but it hasn't really helped or even made it worse. I've done a great job with mitigating each episodes and the intensity of most of them has really diminished. Still, they happen really frequently, and I am going back to seeing a psychiatrist because there are still a lot of things I haven't tried. I started doing 4-6 hours of walking on my treadmill desk, and meditation and those things have benefitted me a ton, but still haven't stopped the episodes from happening. I am going to make meditation one of my priorities this month, since it is really changing my life for the better and has so much carryover to trading.
That said, today was a really productive day. I was able to set up a monthly volume profile on Sierra Chart and watched a bunch of tutorials regarding footprint charts and other indicators. Sierra Chart is quite a complicated platform but I am beginning to get the hang of it and I think that by the end of the month I will be quite proficient with it. After I setup my charts, I am going to rack up 100 trades on replayer and analyze them, with the goal of proving profitability and gathering data on my psychology, behavior and setups.
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