The bakery I co-founded with my wife went viral on national news & has literally reached some of the higher levels of the government, something that 99.99% of businesses can never dream of & that is such an anomaly, that even those who do experience it ruin it by chasing fame and money. Bread is selling out in seconds...lines out the door. It's the most surreal thing I've ever seen. This is the most wholesome business I've ever founded & it's literally become a treasure in one of the most significant cities in the world. What a blessing.

Was in the sauna, having conversations. Tried to talk to a local and he was friendly but didn’t speak English. Instead of stopping there, I decided to speak to him in Indonesian. Wasn’t perfect, I didn’t care. I really enjoyed having that conversation and being able to think and articulate myself

Want to shout out @Jack Stewart for an incredible win! Absolutely killing it and seeing you carve up is inspiring. LET'S GOOOOOO

Yesterday I saw this attractive woman, approached her, got her number. Sent a message with no attachment to outcome. Got two replies, and no convo carried on. Ok. Today I went back to the cafe and saw her, all good. As I was working, she walked in with another bloke. IMMEDIATELY, I went to making comparisons and came up with an ancient scroll as to why this guy is better than me and she likes him more/that's the bloke banging her/dating her. I felt a somatic sensation in solar plexus and gut. What I did. 1. I carried on doing my work, finished my tasks 2. I went to the bathroom, washed my face and said out loud, that I am safe. There's no threat to me where I feel the need to try and escape that threat. 3. I said outloud that what happened doesn't make me worth less an individual or worse than any random bloke. 4. Went for a walk to get fresh air, smiled. 5. Came back and journaled: what happened, what it really is, my takeaways and my actionable steps My W here: the massive progress in my response to this compared to even just a week ago when I did my last seek help. 1. Reflected on what Sam said and put those 3 questions to investigate into my journal and thought about them 2. The fact that I didn't stop my tasks is a huge sign of progress - compared to about 8 months ago when I had something similar and stopped work, left early and called in sick the next 2 days (fucking crazy I know, I laugh at this now hahaha) 3. Me using an affirmation of "I'm safe" and then vocalising how it doesn't make me worth less is a great actionable step to take in terms of me being able to regulate the NS 4. This is further evidence, that I clearly am an attractive stud who is more than capable of approaching attractive women and getting their numbers. Something I would never even imagine 5 years ago when i got dumped and wanted to kill myself, thinking and saying out loud every day how pathetic and unattractive I was.

I have been through a journey where I was incredibly reckless with just saying things for the sake of it and not being intentional. To then being afraid to speak my mind and say anything. Today at the airport, I was waiting in line for a flight and it was taking a lot longer than normal, I thanked God for the blessing of patience and getting the chance to talk to people in the line too. There were numerous people losing control of their frustration and being pretty rude to the staff. I wondered if I should have checked them early or was I being judgmental. I asked for guidance and then realised that God has blessed me with strength and courage and I have always been a protector and someone who stands up for what believes in, even at the expense of social alienation. So I checked this guy in the line who was very rude. But I did so with understanding and not frustration. Told him to take it easy and that we’re all in the same line so he’s not alone but calm down. I also realised that I got this strength of character from my Dad which makes me even more grateful for all I have been blessed with.