I am so happy to announce I won big this week. I spent time with my sisters and we had a great loving time with each other. That is a big win but the best and biggest win is that I had my own desserts made by chef Nancy. I preordered a few weeks ahead. We went to Olive Garden for dinner. I was not sure what I was going to eat but I knew I was going to be ok. I ordered salmon and broccoli and didn't have or share a dessert. I felt calm for the most part. of course there were a few moments where thoughts came to convince me to eat like I was missing out (FOMO). And of course, my sisters dessert choice was my favorite lol. It was offered to me and I turned it down. This may not seem like a win to some but for me, being calm and not afraid of food and being able to control myself is huge. It's not about not having it, it was about me not feeling overwhelmed and controlled by it. for the first time in a long long time I felt normal around food and desserts at a restaurant.
There is also the reality of me believing I was prepared for this day. I did not set a timer for my check in for the day in the 21 standards day 6. I also lost track of time and went to bed late and woke up late. I am not trying to make any excuses here just owning up to my mistakes. Even when you are on track but having a good time, things can still fall short. In standard 1, keeping your word is key. I did not keep my word even though I thought I was prepared. It's back to day 1 for me. I can say this though, I did not throw in the towel with the rest of the day or quit altogether. I don't know how to keep my word with wake up time and going to bed on time when there are plans to do fun stuff. Maybe not during the challenge I guess. All feedback is welcomed.