I am thinking about the authentic self and when I was closest to that state of self. And I remembered. When I was a little girl, filled with hopes, walking on clouds of dreams, impatiently waiting for the miracles of life, love, and friendships. I was so - pure, and innocent! So happy and so enough for who I am!
Hmm...but the world and the people did not accept me! They wanted, insisted fiercely my change! And I couldn't understand why realness is not OK, why being me is not enough?! There was sadness, deep profound sadness...people made me think and feel there was something wrong with me and I had to change that so that I could fit in and get the seal "APPROVED"! It took me years to comprehend that it was never about me, there was nothing wrong with me...it was them and their expectations about me! I felt scared and lonely, i wanted to belong and I began changing to fit in the different packs...accepting their conditions of worth to some extent where I still stay connected with my genuine self. And now I feel that the reversal process has started some while ago to become more and more myself! To be real, honest, kind, understanding, and to return to that little girl but wiser and more experienced! I belong to myself at last! Never lose yourself folks because of others and walk hand in hand with that unique and real version of yourself - it's always the right choice to be YOU! xxx