Hello I’m Phany. Today I finally decided to live my truth. It’s the first step and I haven’t been able to stop crying. Purging every ounce of my well being. Feeling of sadness and remorse but lighted at the same time. Today I came across something called Erotic Intelligence. I deeply sat with myself and asked “ is this the desire I what? Because the ones who stopped lying to themselves of what they want walk with such grace. They have stopped splitting themselves: the spiritual self goes to the temple, the desiring self goes underground, and neither one tells the truth. They have learned to hold desire and consciousness in the same hand. This is not about technique. It is about honesty. The kind that costs something. And it did cost something because I couldn’t be truthful to myself. I ended up hurting others. Fuck, it caught up to me. My voice trembled as the tears fall down, but it is about being honest in your life. It is the willingness to know what you want, to hold that knowing without shame, and to move through the world as someone who has stopped lying to themselves about what moves them. As this new shift, I intend to not judge, not defend, nor explain it. Just witness it.

Hello lovely friends I am sorry I have missed on trainings, but I am going through a difficult time and could use as many prayers and positive thoughts that you can share. I hope to be there at the next training. Welcome to all the new babes here and I look forward to meeting you.