I thought I was being strong.
I thought keeping it together meant I was healed.
I thought not crying about it anymore meant I was over it.
I was not over it.
I was just exhausted from carrying it.
There is a difference between peace and numbness.
There is a difference between forgiveness and silence.
There is a difference between being healed
and being too tired to feel it anymore.
I did not know that my nervous system had made a decision
long before I had a chance to weigh in.
It decided:
Showing this is dangerous.
Saying this out loud will cost you something.
Silence is safer than being seen.
And so I stayed quiet.
For years.
Here is what I know now:
The silence was not protecting me.
It was protecting the wound.
Keeping it fed.
Keeping it hidden.
Keeping it running the show
from a place so deep inside me
I did not even know it was there.
Proverbs 23:7 says:
“As a person thinks in their heart, so are they.”
The word translated ‘thinks’ in the original Hebrew
refers to something closer to what we now call
the subconscious.
The place that operates before you have a chance
to choose your response.
The nervous system.
God was not just talking about your mindset.
He was talking about what your body
has been trained to believe.
What has your body been trained to believe?
That is the question.
And the answer
is almost always hiding
inside the story
you have never told. 🤍
Drop a 🤍 if your silence has been working overtime.
Share this with the woman who mistakes exhaustion for healing.
She deserves to know the difference. 🤍
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