A few years ago I began feeling very curious about death, dying and the grieving process. I didn't know why at the time but I started reading about the experiences of those who were terminally ill and those who had lost loved ones. I signed up to volunteer with hospice patients and began spending time with them in various facilities. At the time I had never lost anyone very close to me beyond my Grandmother on my Mom's side and had quite a bit of anxiety around the idea of losing someone I loved. Over the last few decades I had lost many, many pets and had to make many decisions to euthanize to prevent suffering so I was no stranger to grief and loss. However, I wanted a better understanding of this from a human perspective for the work I do with my clients and to help lessen some of my own anxiety around death. I have always been intolerant of suffering of animals, children and elderly (or people who can't advocate for themselves). When something causes me anxiety I have always been someone who goes after the cause and tries to find peace within the pain. On March 6th, 2026 I received a message from my Dad that my Mom had been in a terrible accident and to call him immediately. My moms story is in a post in this community titled: Finding Miracles Amongst Chaos and Loss Her story is tragic, devastating, painful and the suffering unfathomable but also filled with miracles and I know she would have wanted it shared for many reasons. I created this community for people struggling through loss and grief and the emotions and heavy feelings that come with it-as well as the chaos with family, money, estates and more. *Family conflict and communication issues *Feeling stuck in sadness and wondering if you will ever feel normal again *Feelings of anger at the injustice of what has happened *Wrongful death loss and anger and resentment toward the person(s) who caused it *Questioning faith and wondering if God even exists (or even wanting a deeper connection with God but have been held back by fear, guilt, or old beliefs about spirituality)