What we carry unresolved quietly shapes how we experience God, Jesus, and the people around us. Unintegrated shadow doesn’t disappear in faith. It reorganises perception. Pain distorts spiritual perception. It is not about belief. It’s about the nervous system. Unresolved pain reshapes how we read: - authority - safety - love - meaning - Including how we experience God. It can feel spiritual because the body doesn’t run on doctrine. It runs on: - threat - attachment - safety - regulation So it assigns meaning from felt experience, not doctrine. Pain carried in the body (inherited included) - Projects punitive authority onto God - Interprets love as conditional - Confuses humility with self-abandonment - Confuses devotion with shame Because the body learns to survive and then keeps surviving long after it needs to. This results in: - God being an authority to appease - Growth actually being self-abandonnement - Obedience replacing embodiment - Shame masquerading as devotion - A sinner identity that limits your capacity to embody Christ fully - Teachings filtered through fear rather than coherence - Prayer turns into reassurance for outcome control The necessary spiritual clarity for this to happen is not “better beliefs”. It is found in the body no longer needing to protect. Integration and shadow work create the conditions for genuine devotion, trust & alignment This is not a loss of faith but maturation of perception. Shadow work matters because what remains in the shadow: - leaks into judgement - hides behind “niceness” or obedience - projects onto God, authority, and others Integration restores honesty, agency, & wholeness. Jesus did not model dissociation, bypass, or suppression. He modeled embodied presence, emotional coherence, & truth without fear. To follow Christ is not to avoid the shadow. It is to bring light through it.

A lot of people are feeling the pull towards christianity at the moment. I honestly love that people are searching for the light in all of the darkness that is arising. But turning towards a religious Christ is not the answer. I grew up in a Christian cult, got out of it and become atheist then swung to New Age. That left me even more fragmented than before (psychosis and all). I met Christ through a mystic lens and everything started making sense. Along the way I became trauma informed, got qualified in coaching and use Bioresonance technology to help others at a distance. That is what I teach here on Skool.

This has been a BIG change in my perception and one that marks my lifelong journey with Christ. When I started to apply new terms to things associated with Christianity, it freed me from the preconceived notion I had always held and stopped me from getting to know the true Jesus. So in my teachings here, I use terms that you may have never heard of. That is deliberate so that you can start a fresh.

For my first ever post, I will start here. For a long while, I tried to believe in all of these at once. But it became impossible to hold coherence and only created more confusion. Let's break down the actual differences between these 3 lenses. I would love to hear what beliefs you hold. Is it one of these or a mix of all of them?