I feel so fucking depressed.
I ruined my dads birthday by not communicating with him about my phone frozen and not getting it to verizon. My icloud, instagram and bank account is hijacked. I want to make money so fucking bad. every fucking asshole always said money doesn't make you happy. fuck you you mother fucker. you would've been sad like me. is it not making you happy? being broke doesn't buy you fucking happiness you fucking dickhead. I wanna slap someone who says this. I'm going through fucking hell. I'm a fucking idiot for giving my account to someone. I feel like absolute shit. Like I need help. I can't make a business because I need fucking money. this is why I need a job because there's no other way to start a business. I'm lonely and depressed as fuck. I can't even get out of bed at 5 fucking AM in the morning. everyone always say like if there's anything you need I'm there for you. I ask you and this is how you fucking treat me?
I need help starting a business so I won't be broke ever again. I'm sick of living this broke life. how the fuck do I make money online without zero dollars. because I'm suffering like fucking hell.
I haven't gone to mma classes.
I don't have fire in me.
I got back with a loser friend the 4th time.
I slack off of self improvement.
I lost my job, unemployed for 4 fucking months.
Everything.
this is all my fault and I don't know how to fix it I wanna fix it now.
what the fuck am I gonna do?