Saw it all for myself The gray turn black My beating heart stop The moment I died yet stayed standing The moment my soul perished Yet the shell continues operations Life on autopilot of substance use and reckless disregard And only at 28 I feel closer to death than I ever considered feasible

My daughter, my lovely, my sweet, sweet girl. My life changed forever when you entered this world a new sense of purpose rose up in my soul. I felt so accomplished taking on this new role. The happiness I felt just to smell your sweet skin, or the thrill we shared when each new skill'd begin. I've been deliberating, contemplating a perfect token. So you could experience the joy of which I have spoken. Here's a mirror that contains magic Galore For the vision you'll see, possesses so much more than the picture you're used to of your flawless skin. It reflects your beauty that shines from within Believe what I'm saying about this mirror which seems plain Look at your reflection, take your time while I explain Gaze in your eyes, see them sparkle and shine, how they see the best in others and beauty divine. Pay attention to your lip so expressive and pink, How they speak words of kindness and your thoughts, distinct Your hair? Your crowning glory, as it frames your face reminds me you're a princess filled with humility and grace. I could go on and on as my list has no end. So many qualities I've admired as your personality transcends. As you grow and mature and your dreams are all met, Know, I'm so proud and love you, dont ever forget.

I always thought the saddest feeling was loneliness Today I learned the most heartbreaking feeling is living for everyone else but yourself Waking up on autopilot with zero intention As if I live on a 1s and 0s network Pre determined and pre planned One step two step One mistake and a regret A bottle with some weed Addicted and malfunctioning lost and watching my hope rust away like glimmers on a diamond dream Love seems foreign and peace is not feasible Torture for me Peace for thee Bleed me so she can smile

I see me and you see them I believe me and you believe them you never saw me for I am not within your scope I believe it wasn’t me than I saw it wasn’t you To marry you was a dream I had Than I saw the nightmare ensue To believe was to achieve to achieve to to give the ring the ring lay barren in its lonely box With your name still etched in its band

Profound guidance found in delusional discourse Moments of illusion and Granger Things I see but I don’t witness Things i believe but never see Moments I live but never feel Things I trust but never understand It’s always one or another It’s one in the same To be or to be me Let’s see how the fair runs so deep Let’s believe as fate passes over the trees The sun sets with a gentle breeze As my coffin is lowered beneath my lovers dreams