https://youtube.com/shorts/8a7mxf9RJUs?si=AMBazqybRXEdllDz

https://youtu.be/w6AHcv19NIc?si=8_bqgC3wsLppASHB

I am a very average 39 year old woman. I do not run after my youth I do not play follow the leader I will not waste anymore time. At the age of 11 I had lost my mother to colon cancer. She had been sick most all of my life despite the Drs telling her she wouldn't survive 3 years and then making it 13 years. It was EXTREMELY DIFFICULT & TRYING especially throughout my youth. This has believe it or not been a curse and a blessing. A blessing in the sense that all of the people around me who have had their parent or parents their whole life and then After years of memories, their loved one will pass. So yes at the time I was a Shattered mess of a young woman seeking instant acceptance from older men and women most out of school and much older than me. I strived for verification in much all of the wrong places. Sure it's not the way one would go it's a long road to hoe. But I've done it and I've made it through and still yet I can lay my head down at night and my mind is peaceful. I have used my past experience as a greater life skill that has led me on a journey of individuation.