What was it like the first night out? Honestly the first night felt great, it felt free and it was peaceful. But waking up the next morning was anxiety and worry and all because of the lack of structure that had been taken away.

Why I choose rehab over going back? Because I woke up and was tired of giving, I was tired of losing and sick of watching myself punish myself when I know that I can achieve so many great things.

Day 1. Didn’t overthink it. Just posted. If you’re starting over too, welcome.