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Nice to meet you!

Hello, my name is Susana. I'm 21 years old, trilingual, and still learning more languages—I’m a huge language enthusiast.

This year, I’ve truly connected to God as part of my self-discovery journey. I’ve been praying before every meal with gratitude for everything, and having these mind-opening conversations with myself and God. I’ve never been happier... but I also struggle with understanding who I truly am.

I feel I’m someone easily influenced, like a chameleon that changes with every connection. I consider myself a very empathetic person; to me, there’s no strict right or wrong, and I know human beings are naturally contradictory. But often, I change my own conceptions or ideas after listening to someone or even after watching videos online. It’s as though my own ideas aren’t strong or convincing enough for me.

I don’t really like this idea of being “not authentic” or “not myself,” and I wonder if I’m people-pleasing—though it doesn’t entirely feel that way either. Does anyone understand what I’m trying to express? Is it wrong to be easily influenced?

I’ve been writing a lot about my own ideas and trying to form a clearer concept of what I believe. But I still have this feeling that maybe the things that Im writing are not really myself.. maybe I’m not really myself. 🤔 (maybe iam overthinking)

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