Last night I had a dream about becoming visible that woke me in a fright. I have felt paralyzed all day.
In the dream, I was a little girl in a nightgown. I woke up once to the front door halfway opened. I quickly shut it and locked it then returned to my dream bed. Then further in the dream, I found the door wide open again. I watched as the little girl shut the door then hammered and nailed it shut. Then I woke up in reality panicked with the song Always Remember Us This Way by Lady Gaga playing in my head.
I took me the better part of the day to realize the dream was about being seen. And that the door opened because all I have creating in the quantum was now ready to become reality and this little girl in my nervous system is having none of it.
This little girl is an identity I can't seem to shed. I know its from my mother around 2 when we first start to create realities about safety. It is clearly not safe to be seen at this level. I spend a good hour trying to get her to tell me what she was afraid of but only thing I got was I need permission to be seen in other people's spaces (like Skool groups)
I know there is something deeper. I can feel it and that Lady Gaga song is playing in my head again. I am right on the edge I can see all I have created right outside the door but the fight is real.
I know there are some talented people in this group, any suggestions on how to get her to tell me the truth.
And who else's little girl needs help across the finish line?