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Decide To Stop Negotiating With Yourself

It's a looooong post, but I hope you read it.

It happened while wiring in my journal Christmas Eve night. "87 days till my 55th birthday!"

What happened was a memory of a moment. I was a teenager just arriving in my mother and step-fathers home. It was his 55th birthday and I distinctly recall how he seemed so old to me. I tried to get stories about his life but outside of serving in the Korean war (as a clerk) and having his own kids, his life seemed pretty unremarkable. "All those years and you've done nothing?!" I exclaimed. My response wasn't taken well and only given in a look I'll never forget.

Now my life has been quite the adventure, for sure. I've done lots and lots of things, gone many places, some i wish I hadn't gone to and some are still amazing in memory.

But I've always wanted to go visit the Grand Canyon. Christmas Eve 2025 I wrote my personal declaration. I recommend everyone take some serious time to do this.

One of my items on mine was I will not negotiate with myself. I'd decided I was going to use Christmas day as a launch point for the next best version of myself and no better place to do that than at the Grand Canyon writing what parts of the old me must die and stay right there and not come home with me.

****One thing you must know is when you make a decision to change our go for something bigger, expect things to get in your way. ****

The way there was scary. I drove alone down Pitch black roads, with pouring rain, and dense fog. With no other cars on the road and being unfamiliar with the roadways, the "WATCH FOR ANIMALS!" signs along the way, and two times I had a ptsd anxiety situation due to past car accidents, several times I almost turned around and drove back home.

"I don't negotiate with myself!" And "The only way through fear is through it! Those were the words that got me through.

I arrived at the Grand Canyon. Not a single car at the gate before me.

It was cold, windy, raining, and foggy, but I was there. I laughed at how I wanted to be there for the sunrise (hidden behind the clouds) and take in the view (concealed by the fog and rain). I was so incredibly happy though! Allowed many people to get to know the crazy happy lady at the Grand Canyon by herself wishing them an enthusiastic "Merry Christmas!!"

Eventually it cleared enough but it was still cold and rainy. I wrote in my journal there while sitting in my Jeep. Said goodbye to the parts of me that needed to die to allow for the parts of me that needed to grow their space.

I'll share an example of what a personal declaration of personal power may look like. Brendon Burchard has a book, "The motivation manifesto" it's where I got the idea.

Post here if you decide to take on this assignment and share one thing you're committing to below.