Feels and applying tools · Smart Funny Tortured

Feels and applying tools

I couldn’t find the proper category for random questions so I chose this one 😬

I am gonna lean myself out of the window a little here..

I have two topics (lmao who am I kidding a million) that have been coming up at random times. One is regarding heartbreak in friendship that has recently surfaced and keeps staring me in the face - applying all my other tools like getting into body, purge writing, different focus, reframing but it’s one of these issues where I have a feeling “the issue is not the issue” and similar to what I mentioned on the call yesterday with regards to “having to know why I am doing this, what the goal is” my mind is seeking answers, breakthrough. Ok pause here.

Another thing coming up is around resources and a back and forth of overflow and bliss and scarcity and fear (especially of old things repeating) which, if I am being totally honest does trigger me into a negative spiral when I get a chance to compare myself - eg in conversation- and is clouding my judgment and/ or decision making process. And then just makes me feel like my brain wants to stay in limbo.

Very uncomfortable to share these two things. Not sharing for advice or coaching - but was wondering - since I also have felt I didn’t make progress on the modules this week, how could I playfully engage with what I already found out. Feels almost like a silly question because I can obviously just continue and “find out”. But because both of these things do not seem to fit the standard “working through it transformational moment” I thought I would leave it here. Already in resistance to everything lol. Thanks for reading so far.

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