Yesterday I received the most unexpected birthday present.
While getting ready for sleep, I entered a state of trance and quickly experienced qualified primal fears (fear of death, fear of others, fear of scarcity....)
At first awareness would be drawn to the fear and identified with it, "I" was afraid, scared, dread. Then the fear would become familiar, less intense, letting an observer emerge. Eventually the observer would take a step back, and fears would become mere elements on a scenery. Ultimately, awareness moved from identification with fear to a stable observation position. The mind enjoyed the rest of the trance freely moving from one state to the other.
Today no milk, has my fear gone away?