✨ What My Last Revelation Taught Me (Spoiler: Growth Isn’t Always Pretty, But It’s Real)
You know that moment when something just clicks—not with fireworks, but with a quiet “oh… damn”? Yeah. That was me last month, sitting on the floor, surrounded by cold tea, open journals, and one very unimpressed cat. The revelation? I’m allowed to change. Again. And again. And again. Even if I circle back, take detours, or accidentally nap through the metaphorical sunrise. Living with bipolar disorder can feel like riding a rollercoaster you didn’t queue for—and somehow you’re wearing the wrong shoes. There are the highs that make you feel electric and invincible, followed by lows that swallow you whole. But here’s the growth: I stopped thinking of this as a flaw and started seeing it as a rhythm. My own strange, spiraling, beautiful rhythm. So what sparked the shift? Honestly? Exhaustion. The kind of emotional burnout that makes even brushing your teeth feel like a TED Talk. I was tired of chasing some “ideal” version of me that was always stable, productive, and Pinterest-ready. That’s when I realized: growth isn’t linear—it’s seasonal. Just like nature. Some days I bloom. Some days I compost. And both are valid. I started leaning into the slower days instead of shaming them. I picked up paints again—not for Instagram, just for me. I walked barefoot in the grass, not to be “healed,” but to remember I had feet. I let myself laugh even when nothing was fixed yet. And that’s the revelation I keep returning to: My life doesn’t need to be perfect to be powerful. And having bipolar disorder doesn’t cancel out joy—it just asks me to redefine it, over and over again. So yes, it can suck. But it doesn’t have to be a life sentence. It can also be a canvas, a classroom, even a comedy show—if you let it.