Wohoo!!! With tips i saw here and on Youtube, I found my mix (im 99% sure🤭)!!! After years of choir and band singing my chest voice is really strong, so the contrast with my falsetto was way too big. So, I tried to find my mix, and I did! Almost right away i was able to sing up to a G5, without a break! However, I noticed an issue right away as well... My chest to mix contrast is still just as bad, just not in the same way as switching from chest to falsetto
Lower mix (Up to a Bb4) is not an issue, those upper fourth octave notes are my highest chest notes, but previosly I had one way of hitting them; loudness, pushing and strain. Now those notes are easier and more reliable, so thanks for that!
The problem I ran into though is this:When I go past my highest chest notes using my mixed voice, my voice becomes at least two of these, usually all at the same time:
1)Airy & weak
2)Shaky & trembly
3) Unreliable & uncontrolled
4) Strained & taxing
SO, can I do something, or will my mix only be something I can use to upgrade my chest notes, without providing more actually appliable range? Are everyones high notes horrible at first? Videos on mixed voice usually present it as something that when found, turns you into the perfect singer over night. I've just been working REALLY hard on this, and more work can be a frustrating reward😅 Well, I should have expected this...
Additional info:
My mixed voice doesn't get worse or better as I go up. It's just as bad in C5 as in a G5 a fifth above! Weird, right?
The problem is not in trying to be too chesty, at least i don't think so. I have already thinned and thinned and lightened and lightened my chest voice to reach any kind of mix, so im not trying to get all of that weight of my naturally lower voice into my E5:s
Support is under control as well, at least has been with my chest voice for years.
Thanks a bunch for anyone taking time out of their day to even read this, double thanks for responses!