I understand rage.
I understand needing to hurt to feel something
I understand feeling powerless
I understand death
I understand losing someone so important that you can’t breathe
Life takes me down over and over
I finally feel like I’m losing my composure
Stuck in a world with no home
I understand being alone
What I don’t understand is why people need to hurt people when they feel powerless
What I don’t understand is why people don’t understand when others are trying their best
Let us rest
I understand pain
I understand love
I understand being in a room full of people and feeling alone
I understand trauma
And I understand addiction
What I don’t understand is why people judge
Have you ever had something you do that makes you hate yourself but you can’t stop.
Have you ever had anyone tell you I love you
I care about you and not been able to believe it
Have you ever had to admit
I understand all that more than I understand myself
I understand the problem with poor health
I’m trapped in this numbness
That doesn’t really end
And no one understands it
not even my friends