Today I noticed something strange.
I felt calm.
But I also felt tight.
Not anxious.
Not panicking.
Just… wound up inside for no clear reason.
And then it hit me.
This is what it feels like
when your nervous system is learning a new default.
For a long time, my body lived on alert.
Noise. Stress. Chaos. Reacting. Fixing. Bracing.
That felt normal.
Now things are quieter.
And my body doesn’t quite trust that yet.
So it keeps a little tension… “just in case.”
It’s not danger.
It’s leftover readiness.
And I’m slowly teaching it.
“We don’t need that anymore.”
This part of healing isn’t talked about much.
You don’t suddenly feel amazing.
You feel… weird
.
And weird is progress.
Sometimes the sign you’re getting better
is not feeling bad,
but not knowing what to do with feeling okay.
Stay strong. I know I am.
💪💚💯