I recently picked up meditation again, and combined with the awareness we talk about here, I’ve made quite a bit of progress in my social life.
I’m super aware of the fear when it comes up. I don’t do that many approaches - it’s not my main focus - but my social interactions have drastically improved just from noticing. It’s honestly crazy.
It’s hard to describe, but conversations just seem to flow so much better.
You know that awkward feeling you can get when you’re three people in a room and one leaves? I felt that today. And the simple fact that I noticed it made it almost go away. I instantly felt my head “clear up,” and I was able to crack a joke.
I also caught myself striking up a conversation with a guy working in a shop - it just came naturally. I didn’t even think about it.
Right now I’m writing this in a board game café. I felt a bit bored today, so I decided to go out. I’d heard they host some events, so I wanted to go there in person and ask them.
On my way there, I felt this sudden sensation - fear. They’re probably busy. Will they think I’m weird for asking? You guys know the usual.
But I noticed it, and that made it manageable. I was able to ground myself pretty easily. I went in, and it turned out they were great, and we ended up chatting a bit.