My challenge with fatigue...

Brother uncle song encouraged me to write a post here in the general section. It is interesting to observe how I feel to post about it again. I feel kind of pushy ;-)

I was always a very curious, energetic, inspired person who loved to do a lot. Until I had my burn out aka depression/panic attacks in (around) 2015. This brought my to the path of self-development and spirituality. Well, I was on that path before but then it/I got "serious". I learned a lot, grew a lot, got a much deeper connection and understanding of the energetic and spiritual world. So from my point of view today I'm grateful for this depression and panic attacks. As it brought me to another track in life and much more deeper connection to me. But what never got healed was the fatigue I had since than. And it made me aware that I felt tired since childhood. I just haven't been aware of it. I ignored it and fought it (and the underlying emotions/traumas) with a lot of activity.

Since I'm aware of it I try to find a solution to feel energetic, inspired, motivated, like me again... I tried so much over the years... Since two years it got even worse. First I thought I'm just close to burn out again, as my father died one year before. I was the only one who was responsible for everything (doctors, house/apartments, bureaucracy, selling/clearing the house....). I thought that I just need some months to recover and everything is fine. But I didn't get better. It got worse. My muscle strength got quiet weak (which was never my problem before) and startet to feel kind of sore, my joints started to hurt, I got heavy mood swings (generally I don't feel depressed, but there are those days when it gets really dark, like someone had pushed a button (or Harry Potters Dementors came in), brain fog...

A half year later I got aware that I was bitten by a tick a half year before... And short after that my pre menopause started. Both could have affected my fatigue.

Just to give you a brief overview what I have tried over the years:

at the beginning general therapy
family constellation
energy healing
shamanic methods
(holotropic) breathwork
supplement (oh did I try a lot 😂 Even with blood analysis)
TCM
Accupuncture
Some food adjustments
meditation
yoga
sport (not those two years - I don't have the power)
iron supplementation
ceremonies
healing for my ancestors
taking time off
different techniques to work with the nervous system
quantum field technique
.....

So I'm frustrated and yes, sometimes very sad... Because when I have those little moments where I feel like I normally do life is beautiful and easy.😀 And then those regular ups and downs are ok.

But with this fatigue everything gets heavy and challenging. And piles of undone things are getting higher...

A little new glimpse of hope: spirits brought me to an online summit about parasites. There had been two really interesting talks about parasites in general (who could lead to symptoms like I have) and lyme disease in general. I will contact those doctors and check out what they might have for me.

If anyone has some idea I'm glad to get some new insights ;-)

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