Tuesday Triumphs & Troubles · Neurospicy Starseed Collective

Tuesday Triumphs & Troubles

Happy Tuesday.

Every triumph isn't a positive one. In fact I can remember many that felt downright empty. One of the reasons is the dopamine crash that comes after a big win. Maybe another is my neurospicy brain moves on too fast to pause and celebrate.

Good thing every trouble isn't a loss. Into every life a little rain must fall. I would never have considered having groceries delivered on a PTSD day. Before the pandemic I'd actually run out of groceries quite regularly. Now I am so grateful I can have food dropped at my door that isn't takeout. It makes safe self-care feel more like taking a people break and less like self-isolating.

My triumph this week is following through on some intentional price increases. In the past I would under value myself in more ways than money. Today I have a many clearer measurements to help me see when I'm sliding in that direction.

My trouble this week is seeing a pattern of passive-aggressive manipulation being mirrored back to me. As I said all troubles aren't negative. I don’t feel guilty that I have expressed myself that way. I can see where that too came from a low self worth. Now I can see it and hopefully be aware of it more quickly. In doing so I will develop self-compassion and incredible my ability to hold compassion for others who are communicating from a place of pain and low self-esteem.

It would appear both my triumph & my trouble are raising my self-esteem and self-compassion as they teach me to value myself.

I am worthy of love and all good things.