Today's my Dad's birthday. Last year we sprinkled his ashes on his favorite pond on his birthday. This year the family seems to be doing their own thing.
My neurospicy brain doesn't really process grief. Maybe that's why I get precognitive dreams that show death coming. I don't have regrets to obsess over. I get the opportunity to say goodbye if I want to.
Still it feels like I'm out of sorts today. Maybe my soul wants to process but my brain can't.
Does anyone else have this experience? What do you do with grief?