Mar 17 • 💎Milestone: Weekly Progress
My Path To Sobriety 36 Months - Next Milestone 3 Months
No Drinking, No Weed, No Cocaine, No Porn
Well! i didnt even realize it but i made it to month #2 March 13 - just goes to show if you dont track your progress and have actual road map its so easy to come up short or really forget your goals, im glad that i created a SYSTEM that makes failing impossible as long as i just follow my road map i know i will achieve this. Excited to reward myself for month two! ill have that up in the rewards corner right away!
My next milestone is a timeline so its just a matter of staying disciplined is all it takes.
quitting drinking has been easy, every time i see a weed shop i just think of me just coughing haha and i really don't want to cough anymore there's really no benefits to smoking weed, it makes me lazy, it makes me crave sugar, and i always just spend so much time buying it and smoking it. Ive smoked for over 20 years of my life and was only able to get for 1 year so this 36 month challenge is really going to show me how much my life can transform by not using it.
Cocaine is such an addictive drug, its actually scary, i avoid anyone who uses it, i know ive done it so much that the possibly of relapsing is real with this. Choosing new friends, not going to clubs or bars. Also drinking is my #1 trigger so by avoiding these i know i can stay strong.
Porn...this is a different beast, i unfortunately had the trauma of seeing porn at the early age of 12 and its actually be the hardest vice to overcome, ive watched it probably everyday or over 25 years. im not proud of it but it became a coping mechisnm, its also been a way to justify not being in a relationship its such a easy cop out to just want porn, this is actually the hardest part of this challenge, i think about it alot, its crazy that i feel like im actually going through withdrawals of it. im constantly triggered on IG, and Tiktok, i had to ban and block porn hub and any other type of site to prevent me from looking at it.
i know that porn is fake but its always been my go to and its just a dopamine release im chasing nothing else, its a stress mechnism, i have a beautiful girlfriend and i recommit to her everyday that i know the main reason for majority of divorces is porn so i know if i can get through this 36 month challenge and finally overcome this i will be 1 step closer to having a long lasting marriage.
- my actions this week is to stay focused on my real projects, everything else is just a distraction
- i also commit to blocking and unfollowing anything that triggers arrosual on social media, i dont want to fantasize or even think about porn in my head or another girl, i love my girlfriend and i know that its just an old pattern i use to have. Its not who i am
- i also want to go speak at soberity event or some platform to inspire and encourage others
- possibly join some other communties in support of no porn.
i can, i will, i must.
"If it is to be , Its up to me"
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My Path To Sobriety 36 Months - Next Milestone 3 Months
