Last night I broke. I broke down and cried because the smell of the bbq chicken my partner made reminding me of the smell of the chicken we had that my dad use to make us when we were kids. With in the last few weeks of loosing now my brother and feeling so alone. I don’t want my kids, my mom, my brother anyone to see me cry about the grief I am feeling, I couldn’t help myself last night but I cried and I cried hard! 💔