From 12:15 PM to 2:15 PM, I spent time watching different random videos. They were not for entertainment; they were related to self-grooming and learning. But after spending almost 1.5 hours, I realized something important: this is one of the reasons I am not moving toward my goals.
My mind feels overloaded with thoughts. I keep asking myself, “Omar, your goal is clearly written in your journal. You want to achieve it, so why are you wasting time on things that are not directly helping you?” This activity was not productive for reaching my goals, and I realized that I need better alignment.
I believe this is happening because for 12 years I worked in a job mindset. I was always given tasks, and I simply completed what was assigned to me. That structure controlled my actions. Now, even though I am free from my job, that mindset is still there. My mind still waits for someone to tell me, “You have to do this now.”
I gave myself 15 days to achieve my goals, but 5 days have already passed, and my productivity has been very slow. I can see that my routine is improving day by day. I have been writing my journal consistently for the last 15 days, and that has helped me a lot. However, I strongly feel that to achieve my goals, I need to increase my productivity much more.
I am trying to improve myself. I am watching mental mastery videos, I started from zero, and I have begun praying regularly. I can feel positive changes in my thinking. Still, the main problem I face is that my productivity toward my goal does not feel enough.
My mind keeps bringing negative thoughts like “You can’t do this” or “You will never achieve these goals.” Because of this, I often feel guilty and disappointed with myself, asking, “Why are you not taking action, Omar?”
I am sharing this honestly and would really appreciate guidance from on how to overcome this job mindset and become more productive toward my goals.