People often correctly point out that healing is not linear, that grief is not linear.
When I sit back and take stock of the things In life we have to heal from, what we have to grieve, life shapes up to be quite the Rollercoaster.
My partner was asked this weekend if their job and life make them excited to get out of bed, and his answer was honest:
"It actually really sucks sometimes, but you keep going" then he smiled.
It was the smile that gave away that yes his job and life were more fulfilling than not, and his honesty about not being excited each morning was truly comforting to me. The answer displayed his honesty, his commitment, and the intentionality with which he lives his life.
Would jumping out of bed full of joy everyday honor the people and relationships you're grieving and healing? Would it move you closer to who you are becoming? Would you be inadvertently bypassing important emotional experiences?
It seems that the greatest pleasures and successes in life are often Tangled amongst the complex emotions weaving our experience. They are so tightly wound that attempts to rid your life of negative emotion will inadvertently damage the positivity you seek.