Yesterday we reflected in the online event on Tao Te Ching 1.
At the end, there were two lines on the screen about “Enduring the absence” and “Enduring the presence.” I cannot remember the bridge between the text of the Tao Te Ching and the idea of enduring.
As my problem is to feel like starting the day without having my mind to do it, I thought maybe it is about the rejection of the 10,000 things, and I shall start the day by focusing on enduring the 10,000 things.
But today this felt wrong:
If the 10,000 names and the nameless are the two sides of the coin named "Mystery" or "Source," and if I have to live also in the world of the 10,000 things, why shall I start the day in the morning with the proposal of ENDURING? This felt entirely wrong.
I decided to start the day with ENJOYING the 10,000 things.
In the last months I was looking for the source; I was diving deep into the mystery through solitude, fewer distractions, and perception of what C. G. Jung called the collective unconscious. But today I understood, or accepted, that I have to leave space as well for the world of the 10,000 things. And if so, I can also enjoy it.
My conclusion today is to restart with music and dancing in the morning, to allow myself to start with enjoying the day. I stopped it, because my day was full of music and inner or outer dance. It seems it is about enduring the fracture of the source in namelessness and names and, for the moment, enjoying both separately.
I know that when I start to enjoy, I may forget the names, at least for some minutes. Maybe this is my way or DAO into the mystery or back to oneness.
I still cannot start the day in a state of wu wei, but I will allow my mind to remind me that after the night, it is the time to enjoy the 10,000 things:
- to bring my bedding on the terrace and to feel the fresh air of the new day,
- to wash up my face with a linen-hemp cloth dampened in cold water,
- to grind the coffee beans manually, to boil the clove water for 5 minutes, and to pour it over the coffee
- etc., etc.
And all this while having “Guru Gita” played in the background and dancing around.
Thank you, Jim and the others, who make it possible!