Why are you there? Who are you there for? Yourself, or others? Each have a price and each have a value. Price is always what you pay. Value is always what you get. They are separate. Always seperate. What is the price of being there for ourselves? The value of the question is enormous. The answer will keep changing in meaning and value but the value of the question is forever. It may be your own interest.. The value of its embodiment is a lesson: we can only get so far for ourselves. As we live we come to realize this, to the speed and degree we make it easy or hard for ourselves to learn this fact. Yet for others, for the reasons we have for being there for others, we can't stop if we wanted to. If ofcourse, these reasons are the right ones and if ofcourse, these people are the right ones. Thomas Edison said something along the lines of: "I didn't find the one way that worked to make the lightbulb. I found 9,999 ways that did not work." This has to be our attitudes in our reasons and our relations. The in-between - *learning* - time is a blessing and a brutal teacher. You may restart a million times, all with different plans going in different directions. Which to choose? Its easy to buy a book or listen to a video or the TV or a friend and take their advice. (Its hard to work things out for ourselves in silence). We are all looking to be sold at the end of the day. This is because we are all, always shopping for ideas. In the market, for, well.... we don't know what. But damn you, its something! Along this journey, if you choose it, you will switch paths to an almost nauseating degree. You may become sick or mad with the idea of being "directionless", or with being viewed as so. (I always found this a funny comment. How can something continually course correcting be "directionless"?) But you may travel the world round to come back to where you started, having spent all your money to do so, thinking. Well I just lost everything. That was a waste. And beat yourself up, or even become depressed.