5000 days plus Fuck OK, that’s probably the last time I use that word. I’m really gonna try to watch what I say and what I write but that’s a lot of days man and I’ve been through a lot of shit in the last few years. They still have that number hold up. It’s pretty freaking amazing 5006. I know why I make the phone calls I make it keeps me know why I do what I do, even though it may seem weird strange pain in the fucking ass it keeps me sober 5006 and counting I am looking forward to this next year with the dragon, the Dragon,

Fuck is this hard who knew there was a mental component to going from homeless shelter the whole thing is mental physical financial keep everything a team. I don’t have a team. I have. You did a good day today. I got a lot done. Make new friends neighbourhood happy.

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Today is day 50 amazingly I got through it. It’s tough trying to do it with no government money no homeless village money and there are millions of dollars there somewhere. I just not gonna go hunting. I spent 3 1/2 years trying to get housing I had to pay for out of my pocket. I had to fund it on my own. I got no government money other than my pension. I didn’t get immigration money to rescue me when I came to the country. I didn’t get a bonus I didn’t get anything extra. I’m working with my base tension and I’m trying to do this without any homeless village money and there are millions and I’m trying to do this with the government hand out money and there are billions you know why. It has to be would be done If we can’t do this on our own, we are not pioneers We do not deserve to start communities And we do not deserve to lead And there’s nothing wrong with being a follower But if you’re not wanting to go without any sacrifice everything for the sake of everything else, humanity has there there’s no point in trying And you might as well go get a 9-to-5 job and work in a cubicle for 40 years retire and have a bunch of cause the price of success is either pain or regret You get to choose pain cost more in a short run or regret cost more in You get to choose

today a friend of mine called me crazy I’ve been fighting that label for decades. He wouldn’t back down. He thought it was funny and amusing for him and his team was teaming because he signed the paycheque so they had to laugh at the fucking joke against me it hurt like hell I don’t wanna be hurt like that’s why I’ve just lost a friend today. Your friend has been helpful very helpful and I’m very sad tonight, but I’m not gonna take any abused it triggers, anger, and I don’t need an I just don’t wanna play that game. If you wanna hurt me just I don’t wanna be around you. Would you be around someone that’s gonna hurt you why walk away?