i want to know what awakening really means now days i hear everyone talking about it , what's your thought on this ?

Root: you viscerally feel that God is your safety net; your feet are magnetically drawn to the ground with each step Sacral: you don’t punishment yourself for an occasional day of hedonism and you’re effortlessly creative Solar plexus: you don’t desire money or power and you know that what is meant for you will come; any lapses in career or finances are met with faith Heart: you love unconditionally, you forgive those who betray you but still hold boundaries, you trust your intuition and follow it fearlessly Throat: you know what you want to say and say it, you know who you are and you know when you aren’t being yourself; your voice is clear Third eye: you see the truth in whatever way is native to you (synchronicity, visions, felt knowing) and follow it as your GPS Crown: you see the purpose and meaning in everything, you see how everything in the outer world exists to guide you to the embodiment of your highest self

what happens to the soul when it’s in a constant state of addiction or some kind of vice loop that seemingly seems harder to get out the more you engage in it??

my name is Ava and I recently had a spiritual awakening after going through my first recent heartbreak at 18 just turned 19. moral of the story I was fat my entire life so after I lost weight I met this guy after just moving into college. but before that the self esteem was no where to be found like it was bad in high school I never got chosen and I didn’t want to be seen type of self esteem that messes up a girl. But he took me to his family took my virginity knowing everything and never spoke to me again he was the first person I ever let see my body not even my mom could see me change. I know it sounds very typical and little but u don’t understand the role this played in my mind everyday on a loop. so it’s deep rooted low self esteem thoughts that I would fight everyday it came to a point of where it wasn’t even about the boy, it had only been about myself. It’s all within myself but I had to go through the pain to gain the knowledge. The amount of mental pain I went through I don’t even feel real anymore, but i genuinely try to stay aligned with myself. Ik it sounds like a stupid dumb boy story and ik people go through worse but that was my worst, the pain I had to face from being a little girl like i genuinely felt like a little hopeless girl the entire winter my heart was genuinely shattered, couldn’t even hold a conversation failed 3 classes first year of college. Lost my hair I had such long thick hair beautiful hair btw. I lost my leg muscles everything . I lost 50 pounds that I worked for in the gym before I met him then lost another 10 after we stopped talking. But anyways the way I was eating. I was a mess living in doubt pain shame liek for months. That’s bad. But I had to go through it. Crazy to think I let someone control my brain but he was sick lowkey he tried to played mind games that were like genuinely outrageous like wow looking back. but he was the first to show me love because I couldn’t even show myself love, even from my family we are so close we love each other but growing up like ur a joke, it all plays a a role. But it’s ok. I’ll never see the world the same again it sounds dramatic but it’s genuinely true. I’m catholic so like lowkey disappointment and shame played such a large part in my life for months. the relationship was very overwhelmingly sexual for my first person ever so being ghosted after giving my body messed me up pretty bad. I tried to let everything go months later like at this point I need to take a class on how to detach. I’m so aware of everything around me I feel like I can’t enjoy anything sometimes I know peoples intentions in 3 seconds Ik im not perfect but like I can’t unsee it. This may have led me back to myself. But the anger the trauma it still haunts me everyday I wish it could go away, but that’s life. But I started being in the sun with nature, like I got into flowers, like I really turned different to be honest I completely locked into only eating healthy foods, fruits. It genuinely turned me into the person I am today. I became more creative I learned how to cook. Lowk feels like I have goggles on and I can see the world so clearly, I see right through everything. I lost everyone and everything. And like my best friend since kindergarten wasn’t there for me throughout everything. So I felt 2 heartbreaks in one. But u can’t blame someone for something like that and it’s ok. But either way I built myself up transformed my body and mind. So im grateful.