"Get on your knees" · Christ-in-Kundalini

"Get on your knees"

About five days ago, I was in bed struggling with some anxiety. It was still dark and I was torn: do I get up? Do I stay in bed with all my looping thoughts?

And then there was this voice, strong but not commanding:

“Get on your knees, Jackie.”

And so I did.

In Sat Kriya.

Seven years ago, I used Sat Kriya to calm my nervous system after a debilitating bout with Guillain-Barré Syndrome, an illness that affects your peripheral nervous system. I couldn’t walk for weeks. After I was “stabilized,’ I had a cancerous tumor removed from my kidney that was discovered during diagnosis.

I was healing, but not quite. Getting on my knees was the only thing I could do. And everyday for 40 days, I did. Then it was 60, Then it was 90. And then I was off the Gabapentin and into another stage of my life.

It was after that I joined a Kundalini 200 hour cohort, got my certification with Brett Larkin & Guru Singh, so amazed I was but the effectiveness of Kundalini—in a three-body way. Not partitioned. Whole.

Now seven years later I’m about to finish a 300-hour certification with Guru Singh.

And I’m back on my knees.

This time the experience is different. Every day of Sat is different.

You wouldn’t think so.

You would think every day of that 40 is the same. But what I’ve found is that in each day there is something new to discover. My body speaks to me. It expresses itself through posture, breath, mantra, drishti, mudra, movement.

Each morning before I rise, I listen to scripture. I’m a practicing Catholic, and I say practicing because that’s what Christianity is for me. A practice. Sat Kriya, for me, is an expression of that scripture. Not only of prayer, though it is or can be that, but of story.

For instance, yesterday, my body was the “narrow gate.”

“Enter through the narrow gate…”

—Matthew 7:13

After listening to the reading on my Hallow app, I thought my practice that day would be about drishti. About where and how I placed my gaze. But then I discovered I wasn’t moving through the gate.

I was the gate. I had to be that. And stay.

And oh, how my experience in that moment changed.

I've learned to let what needs to happen happen. During Sat Kriya, I stay on my knees, But after, I allow my body to move freely and my voice to be silent or to sing.

A 40-day Sadhana haș its structure, yes. But it is also an invitation by and for the body to speak.

What questions do you have about Sadhana, daily devotional practice?

What has been your delight? Your struggle?

For more on Sat Kriya see my post:

https://www.skool.com/christ-in-kundalini-8393/sagrada-familia-the-architecture-of-the-body?p=6c2651ef

And here's the 11-minute mantra I practice to:

https://open.spotify.com/track/1N7pnkpVYPqpxqwH1XJggm?si=B2CBN0H7Qj2RJbMQwN4gfA

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"Get on your knees"