Maybe fear or perfectionism · Breakups to Beasts

Maybe fear or perfectionism

I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to do new things but something always holds me back. I can't think of anything without starting to tremble; I can't be myself without thinking that I'm not myself. I want to do journaling but I feel like my handwriting isn't perfect. I want to learn about finance and other things, but when I look at my notebooks I feel like none of them are perfect. I feel like there's no place, space, or time to do it, and I'm getting more and more suffocated. I want to be a woman of God again, but I can't open the Bible without feeling like a fraud for no longer being the me of the past. I want to talk to God, but the words get stuck in my throat for no reason. I don't know, can I or can't I?I feel afraid if I even pick up a pen. I don't know what I need, I just want to be free.

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Maybe fear or perfectionism