Day 1 redo! 🙏 · AI For R*tards

Day 1 redo! 🙏

5 struggles

Most of my life was self centered, focused on what I can do for myself rather than what I can do for everyone. I never understood why my mom always wanted to just help people for the sake of helping, but 15 years later and I finally get it.

I grew up in a trailer park, where most of the kids didn't really like me and my brother as much. We got made fun of alot because we were the chubby kids on the block. Without having a lot of the cool stuff everyone else had, they would try to exclude and chastize us from biking around with them.

Growing up I would usually count my eggs before they hatch. This gave me a sense of financial urgency when I was just 13, because that $700 check I was going to use to help buy a new bike turned out to be only $400 so if I wanted that motorcycle from Shucks (remember before O'Reilly's?) I was going to have to work a little harder at saving, than that.

I struggle with biting my nails, a bad habit I've developed since a kid. I remember My older brother's friend would be chewing on his nails and I asked him why he does that and he said it was fun way to pass the time and that was the worst fucking thing a person could tell an impressionable kid, contributing to this horrible habit development I still try breaking to this day.

My real dad was never there for me, and my rold model was my metal head older brother who painted his nails black and was in a band wanting to be like Marilyn manson. He also would smoke my little brother and me out as kids and have us fight each other til bleeding and crying.

5 contrasting Wins

Self - Being self centered, and then coming to know the Lord much better in life as of lately, has given me a great boost in self confidence and drive. My self centeredness has shift to self improving with the ability to show love and take care of other when I'm able, opposed to the kind of selfish I was as a teenager.

Thrive - That little boy without many friends (myself) wouldn't know that he is going to make a future for himself out of this feeling of nothingness, coming from the Gold Rush trailer park. Growing up without many actual friends shaped me as a kid to focus more on things like earning money and school, at a young age. It helped me lock in and stay committed to my money and my grades.

Kid money - Being young with no fiscal responsibility, brought alot of things that I desired to have but no means to afford. Mowing lawns in summer, and shoveling snow in winter became the normal for me and my brother and we learned young that nobody is going to do it for you, sometimes not even your mom and your dad.. you has to be willing to go out and earn it.

Judge less - While I struggle with my nail issues, I've learned to appreciate and love myself and judge less harshly. True friends who care for you aren't going to care if your nails are bitten down or not, and rather encourage you to grow past it, still working to cut the habit.

Hardened - While this environment for a 6 year old boy was extremely toxic, there were positives still. Mainly being the reason I'm scrappy as hell.. Take-no-shit-kids were being formed and I learned how to whip ass with my little brother at a young age. We got in lots of fights with trailer park kids and we didn't really lose because my older brother had us battle testing as kids, beating the shit out of each other til we didn't want to fight anymore but making us continue.

Win selected is SELF

Hooks

“We’re told confidence comes from putting yourself first. What if real confidence comes from surrender?”

"What if the reason you feel stuck isn’t that you’re too selfish… but that your self-focus has no higher direction?”

“I used to think becoming less self-centered would make me weaker… but it’s the reason I’ve never been more driven.”

Hook

“I used to think becoming less self-centered would make me weaker… but it’s the reason I’ve never been more driven.”

Visual concept. - turning in the bathroom mirror to see my face confidently looking at self. Cleaning my living room, panning to me cooking healthy meals, folding laundry. (Self care)

Voiceover

Now I can focus and hone in on what I want in life instead of embracing the feeling of spinning my wheels in lifes quicksands.

Visual concept - a car stuck in sand at beach, panning to a drag race car spinning out then going fast (representing my new state of movement) followed by a lion snarling and growling at camera.

Voiceover

So focus your goals to God, and develop that "run don't walk" mentality with everything you want for yourself in life and finally take in the fact that you can have anything you want in life if you work for it.

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