After a week or so of being constantly feeling bad about both myself and my parents and how they treat me I think I have unintentionally put a shield around myself from everything including my intuition niggles and tarot cards. Can you do that unconsciously? And how can I remove that shield. I cant help but feel like I have gone backwards with all my work trying to progress with my spiritual side.

I struggled on my TikTok live last night. Not because of the energy of the people on the live but because of spirit's energy. They were not happy speaking through the cards, and they let that be known by making it suddenly really difficult to shuffle them. Yes, I was getting messages and hopefully helping people but it felt like pulling teeth. I have spent this morning with the message in my head 'we aren't performing monkeys' and the really strong sense that they only want to engage with lives when they have something to say. I decided to meditate on the question and was guided to the Akashic Records. It was clear that they see me as a channel to relay wider messages more often than not. Wider messages to help more people rather than 1:1 messages necessarily. So, things like my blog yesterday about Magic and Miracles (by the way, I saw references to magic 10 times after writing it along with messages about miracles) which is the sort of thing they like to channel through me when I record videos for social media as well. It's never simple messages they send me, it's more about how we could be living under the Divine Feminine perfectly meeting with the Divine Masculine and creating balance in the universe. Why am I writing this? Well, because you are all going to be guinea pigs in this enterprise I'm afraid! I am going to be experimenting with channelled messages minus cards that are shorter than my blogs but no less interesting I hope. And they will likely be targeted about how they see the new world unfolding. I'm not sure I will be doing this every day, I don't exactly know how it's going to work at the moment. Or even if it's going to work at all (when I think that, I just get the same response - be open to anything). But I do hope you bear with me as I go through this process, and maybe even enjoy the journey too! Lots of love Anita xx

Want to apologies for a few things. 1st sorry if I miss anyones lives as my parents wifi is shocking, and mobile signal is terrible too. Also want to apologies that I've not done anymore work on classroom. I haven't had much time to do anything I enjoy. When I get back home I shall return back into it... Miss meditation. Miss peace and quiet. Feel like I've not been able to get comfortable enough to try and connect to spirit either... I really should, feeling my mood slipping back to what it was a Christmas.

Had to share! Volume up 🆙 https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWc4CgPiCHv/?igsh=MWViZ2Y1Y2V1YTJ5ag==

Sooooo close to 200 of us!!!